Hate

Fuck fuck fuck fuck
hate hate hate hate
I'm going to fail this class and it isn't even my fault.

GOD DAMNIT THIS WEEK SUCKS.

I feel like offing myself.

/sigh

Its days like these I wonder if life is really worth living.

meh

I don't really know whats wrong with me. I think i'm tired, and my hormones are going crazy (I hate being female), and I'm stressed beyond human comprehension. I wish I didn't already miss a week of school so I could stay home and just ignore the world. That would have been nice. Unfortunately, thats not an option. Even if I did stay home, I would still have siblings to deal with. I should learn to talk to people but I feel like a burden. If I explode, I'm sorry.

*smacks self*

Okay so I just decided I can't take anymore school off.
I'm failing just about every single one of my classes, which is not cool.

This weekend, I will step it up and do all my absent work.
This school week, I need to step it up and try not sleeping during class.

I'm stressed out as fuck. Either this is going to end well, or very very badly.

Uhg.

What a crappy weekend.

Complete with annoyances, hatred, wishful thinking and overall exhaustion.

I officially had a slight break down on Saturday at McDonalds and ended up tossing an entire container of fries across the car because I was having a fit over nothing. I think I'm stressing out just a little too much. I don't think I've hit my complete breaking point yet. I think I'll know what that comes...

I babysat again, and the kids were actually pretty well behaved. I got paid fifty bucks to sleep and sit outside for a little while and watch them play.

Sunday was a little busy... and awkward. I sat in the waiting room for a good eight hours or so on the computer roleplaying and doing homework while some guy I didn't known slept on the couch across the room.

I didn't go to school today, and I'm extremely drained because I managed to catch a cold. Either from my sister or someone else.

I don't plan on going tomorrow because my dad is moving hospitals and no one wants to take me home. I don't really mind. I don't like going places I don't feel welcome.
And right now, I really really hate it there. =___=

So for now, I'm going to sleep in this waiting room and occasionally do my homework.

:D~

Ups for this week:
My dad woke up

Downs for this week:
Everything else.

I love playing pretend.

The good, the bad, the ugly.

Mm, the past week or so has had one of each I think.

The good, I saw Dir en Grey last week.

The bad, my dad got into a motorcycle accident.

The ugly, he'll be in a coma for up to three weeks.