Okay so...

My life officially sucks.
My dad was put back into the hospital because he wasn't taking his medicine, refused to eat and said he was going to kill himself.
My mom had to call the cops because thats why his psyche doctor told her to do, so I woke up and heard someone talking outside my house. I guess it was them. They took my dad and he was admitted back into the hospital.
The night before that he wouldn't leave my mom alone about the money we have, so she got fed up and my uncle had to come over to get him to shut up and go to sleep.
I ended up bawling my eyes out over the phone to my grandma because... I don't know. I just don't think I can really deal with this anymore
She said I needed to talk to people more because ever since this accident happened all I've been doing is pretending everything's okay, but its not. I don't want to put anymore stress on my mom and I just really don't feel like I have anyone to talk to. My friend in Virginia is one thing, but sometimes I just feel like I need a hug or something and no one's there to give it to me.
I don't really want to deal with people anymore. I just want to stay locked up in my room for the rest of my life or until this stage in my life passes, but its not an option.
Maybe I'll find some sort of outlet, but I don't really know where to go anymore.