...-_-

Thats about how I feel right now.
Just... -_-

I'm not really sure either. For the past few days I just don't feel like existing. Maybe I'm just kind of at my limit with everything... especially school.

I. Am so sick. Of school.

I have this terrible terrible case of... idfk what they call it... Senioritis?

I just do not give a single flying fuck about anything.

All I want to do is sleep, and all I can think about it how many other things I could be doing.
I feel really bad because all of my teachers have been super patient with me, especially my sales one.
He's a nice guy and all but for SOME REASON he pisses me off the most, and like I said. I feel really bad.
He's always given me chances to turn my work in, and when I do get around to it I do turn it in and I usually get a good grade on it. I just don't really pay any attention because for the most part, I know it all already.

My English teacher has been trying to be as helpful as possible, but just some stuff in that class doesn't make sense.

They say they test us on a college level now.

Explain to me why I aced the quiz that I guessed all the questions for... and when I mean ace, I mean, I got like, a 97 percent...

And I got a 43 on the test?

And why is it that every single class average for that test is under 65 percent?

Don't tell me its not because we didn't study, because I don't remember seeing a single question on that test REALLY pertaining to what we learned...

The other two classes, Graphics 2 and Walking, are basically self teaching classes so it doesn't even matter. I do what I can and they're just happy with what I dish out at them.


Anyway...

On another note...

I don't know what it is, but lately I have just felt completely down.
I'm tired, I don't care, etc.
I already said this so I'm not going to repeat myself again...

But school hasn't really been my only problem.
Sure, I have a job but I just like... I'm kind of past the "I DON'T WANT TO WORK EVER" phase and have moved onto "I'm going to complain about it but I really don't give a fuck" phase.

So thats not so bad.
In fact, I worked a 31 hour week last week and only made about 50 dollars in tips.
And it doesn't seem terrible but lets put these things into perspective.

When I single bus, meaning I bus alone, I make about 40 dollars on a normal night.
When we get about 200 people, I can make a little closer to fifty.

When we have 100 maybe then its like... 25 or 30.

I can deal with that.

HOW EVER.

Last thursday I actually excused myself to work.
I woke up at 7am, got to work at 9, and then proceeded to work my fucking ass off until 5 pm.
FIVE. PM.
Thats EIGHT HOURS.

SERVING.

FOUR HUNDRED.

MIDDLE AGED

AND OLD

WOMEN.

Because there was a craft show across the street.
How much did I make in tips.

twenty dollars.



....




GRANTED.

I did work with someone else.
But the following Friday.
We only have about 200 people.
I made 22.

Screw this place, I mean seriously.
Either those people hardly tipped at all, and even if they did I would have heard about it cause all the servers do is bitch about how little money they make, or someone is ripping us off.

/sigh

Okay, I believe I am done.
Well, I'm not. Theres some other things I need to get off my chest but I'll just write them down in a word document. I just... I don't want to talk about them here. Not that it really matters.




Oh, and I'm changing this blog title soon and making a new one. Basically because I'm only going to use this blog for venting and what not. Sometimes, I just need it. And my developing carpal tunnel doesn't appreciate me writing for several hours.