/sigh

Last night was the first night I had to work.
It went... swimmingly after I got the hang of things. I still don't know what to do half the time but whatever.
I spent most of the time setting tables and rolling silverware. I didn't mind doing it because it meant I didn't have to talk to many people. I've also proved my manly man-ness and carried a full linen bag up a flight of stairs and across a parking lot... which usually takes about two people to do.

But honestly, I think this is my limit.
I feel like shit.
I'm so tired its not even funny. It might be because it's so last minute... but...
Theres other problems that came along with this that I don't feel like facing right now.
I have to do all this paper work and I don't even have someone here to help me with it.
I need my license so I can actually get there but it didn't happen like it was supposed to because my mom doesn't have my birth certificate (Well, she does... she just doesn't know where it is atm.) or proof of insurance because she doesn't know where the card went.
School is just shit. It makes everything worse than it already is.
Now, I am failing one of my classes and everytime I make something up, I raise the grade but since I have failed practically every test I've taken it just kills me even more.
I'm tired of sitting indoors all day. My friends keep making plans and I feel left out of everything and half the time I don't think they care about anything but themselves.
The start of a new term is tomorrow and the only thing affected for me is my lunch... I'm not even changing. Just the people are. I wish it could just stay the same...
This term is going to suck. I just have the feeling.
I'm PMSing like no fucking tomorrow and I just got it today, which just adds more to my irritation because I'm without the essentials until my mom decides to come home.
Everything is so rushed now I don't even have time to fucking breathe.
I want my dad back and I wish this never happened.
The doctor's said he'd be home within three to four weeks, but he'll have to be under supervision 24/7 which means my psycho grandparents might have to live with us while we're at school and my mom is at work.
They also said he'll probably act differently. I don't know how differently, but I don't know if I can deal with anything else.
And, to add to the stress, my sister is being a royal pain in everyone's asses.
She gets everything she fucking wants, but she does it behind my mom's back and her friends sit there and defend her.
She's just taking advantage of the fact my dad can't say yes or no, and it pisses me off beyond all human comprehension.
My life is turning into a living hell and I don't know how much longer I can really deal with this.