Anime Central

Out of the five years I have been going to Anime Central, this has BY FAR been the best.

I don't have post-con depression for once.. and really, I think its because I feel really satisfied.

So many wonderful things happened.

I got my picture with Sixh. Ibi, bought a Hangry-Angry sweater/dress, met the designers, got Ibi's autograph, met LM.C, saw them play live, was within only a few feet... a few INCHES of them...

Ibi called me cute, Aiji kind of acknowledged my existence, and they were both insanely happy to sign my Punky Heart CD that I have had since it released.


All of it... was just so fantastic.

I don't care if I'm broke as fuck now.

I literally spent nearly 400 dollars that weekend.

I don't even care.

For the first time in a long time, I was starting to feel genuinely happy.

Now that its over, I just... all I want to do is go back.

I feel like my confidence even got boosted a little from it all.

Seeing all the cosplays

Being around people who actually like the same things that I do

EVERYTHING.


Now, this weekend is Prom. And... well...  my birthday.

It refreshed my memory on how much I hate shopping.

Seriously considering investing in diet pills.

I just want a Happy Birthday from one person... if I get it, it could make my night... if not.. well... I would rather not talk about it. Its already making me sad just thinking about it.

The rest of this week... I won't text first.

I don't think I'll really try to make much contact at all.

I mean, what the fuck is the point? I don't want to say I give up... because I really don't want to.

Theres just... no use in even trying to talk about anything anymore... no one listens, no one cares enough to ask whats wrong.

But I guess I don't blame them. I always tell them nothing or that I'm okay when they do anyway. I feel like such an undesirable person its unbelievable.

Can I return to last weekend, please?