Once again.

I'm just ignored and left behind.

Fuck.

I'm so freaking tired, but I cannot bring myself to go to bed.
I have about a thousand things on my mind right now, and I feel like I have to do the equivilent.
I feel like I have to go to work, but I don't
I feel like I have school in the morning, but I don't.
I just wrote three pages to a story and drew about 200 things just because I had the damn time.
It doesn't even matter.

God damnit.

The only reason I stay up this late is because I'm used to it, but I have virtually  nothing to do. Why? Because this person who is supposed to be my fucking friend is ignoring my sorry fucking ass.

Well, maybe not ignoring. But that's what it sure feels like. I don't even fucking know whats happening anymore.

I thought things would be different than everything else but they're just proving not to be. I liked having someone to talk to whenever I fucking wanted to, without any sort of blocks but I don't have that anymore. I just fucking don't.

I think having a friend from the internet this close would actually last but no. Fucking no. Everything had to go to fucking shit because no one wants to go through with anything they fucking say and I can't stop my inssecent bitching. I have people to talk to about this shit but I don't even want to say anything to them because I feel like I'm annoying the fuck out of them everytime I mention it.

I know its not fair. Its not fair to her at all. I'm not mad, I'm just so frustrated and I'm not used to feeling this alone all the fucking time. I can't stand it.

I. can. not. fucking. stand. it.