/huff

Yeah so
I don't know
I didn't go to school for two days because I was too tired.
Actually, I take that back.
I was going to go today, and then it turned around and bit me in the ass.
I missed the bus by like... one minute and my mom threw a shit fit
So I told her I would stay home, considering that my sisters are every one's number one priority.

I'm not worried about getting caught up, basically because it's too early in the year for me to be missing anything I don't already know. 8|

I'm going to write up my resume for graphics.
The only thing I AM worried about
is the fact that I was supposed to sign up for classes for next year.
Everyone knows that if you miss the day, your schedule will be fucked hard in the ass.
I need a certain class.
I don't want it.
I need it.

And if I don't get it, I'm going to die.
Seriously.

There are various other things playing a part in my
not-wanting-to-go-to-school attitude
and there are other things playing a part in my
I-need-to-get-these-classes attitude
I can only talk about that to one person, though.
Or at least thats what I feel like.
I don't want to fight and I don't want to be called ridiculous or paranoid or whatever.
/sigh

I'm honestly terrified of my senior year.
I hardly even know how college works because my school expects every one's parents to teach them that or something.
My parents didn't go to college, so... I'm out of luck.
I feel like a fucking retard going on google to find this shit out.
I should probably talk to a councilor, but I don't really trust them.
I don't trust therapists, psychiatrists, or anyone in that sort of field.

Everything they learn comes out of a text book.